waiting

 Waiting waiting 

So what do we want to say. That recovery is possible a new life is within reach. All will be great and smooth.

It won't. You can have a new life, but it won't be smooth and the more success you have the more you will be kicking yourself for the lost time. So, one of the first things you are going to need to do is forgive yourself. We spent so much time blaming everyone else and then we were told to take accountability for our actions which left this empty hole of resentment. It's very easy to then turn this around on ourselves and self-loathing will literally get us nowhere. I recommend going for a Sozo or some sort of spiritual healing. I still get made and look back and think how far I could have gotten if I had only been sober. But here is the real kicker, the experiences I had do to my drug problem are part of what made me capable of the great things I accomplish now. 

Lets think about it. Before I was shy, and timid, now I am vocal and outgoing. Before I was not an overcomer, I am stronger now mentally. I have learned to deal with all sorts of people, and I have gained the most incredible thing at all... faith and a dependency on God. I have learned to be just and fair. I have been humbled by my experiences and have the unique ability to empathize. 

So yeah, maybe I would already own a house now, maybe not. Sure, I threw a ton of money away and made alot of mistakes, but I learned from them and if we go around comparing our lives to everyone else there will always be someone who has more no matter where we are in our life. I made a grand accomplishment, I got sober and that's something to be proud of, it's no easy feat. God willing and the creek don't rise I will continue to accomplish things that I can be proud of and God can lead me into new challenges.